Hi, I'm Jordi

Me, in cards (flip them)

If you've made it this far, it's time to introduce myself. And introducing yourself well is hard: we're people, not a three-line README. But I'll try.

I'm one of those who've spent their whole life mulling over personal growth (yep, one of those). I believe everyone has a purpose and that, when you find it, the pieces start to fit on their own. When you drift away from it, though, life keeps sending you obstacles like someone opening bug tickets so you'll check your course.

I come from hospitality: many years behind a bar and, later, as a trainer at Cafès Novell —the job I enjoyed most and still miss a lot—, talking to and accompanying people all day. Communication was always my superpower. What I didn't know was that emotions were my big «TODO: fix later».

In the middle of the pandemic —the bug era, 2020–2021— I decided to reinvent myself and started studying programming at the UOC. I was looking for stability, a future and being able to work from home in case the world shut down again.

And right there, when I started programming, what wasn't in the plan happened: I began to notice things in my body I couldn't even name. Emotions. They'd always been there, of course, but it was the first time I stopped to ask myself what on earth I was feeling. Heads up: they weren't the pleasant ones.

Panic, nerves, anxiety and stress moved in and got comfortable, like that tab you swear you'll close and it's still there weeks later. A year later I separated from my ex-partner and my son's mother, and that overflowed the whole system. My life became a rollercoaster with the «out of service» sign flashing.

The last year was one of the hardest: working and studying at the same time, holding it all up, constant pressure. One of the worst years of my life. And, paradoxically, also one of the most important: I finished my studies and along came what felt like a huge gift, an opportunity as a programmer at Lutx Corporació, who instead of taking me on as an intern decided to hire me directly. I'll always be grateful for the trust, the patience and the endurance.

For three years there I lived with many emotions, many questions and an increasingly clear need to understand what had happened to me. And thanks to my YouTube channel —where people wrote to ask me whether studying programming was worth it— I saw one thing clearly: all of that needed a meaning. That's where EmotionsDev was born.

It was born the day I realized I was trying to understand what I felt with the only tools I had at hand. And it turns out those tools came from the technical world.

Here I don't separate technology and emotions, because for me they never were. I use programming, systems and logic as a language to explain things that are usually only told from the abstract and end up as pretty calendar quotes. An infinite loop is ruminating. A try/catch is accepting that something can go wrong. Letting go is having a good garbage collector.

I don't write to give lessons or to tell you how you should feel (I've got enough on my plate). I write to share what I've lived and learned by stumbling, translated into a language that helped me understand myself. No rush, no posturing, and without selling you anything miraculous.

My emotional stack

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